County through County ... by Coach ...

Travelling From Built Up Space to Open space ... and more before the evening darkness fell ...

... it is a little disorientating ... I was asleep for some of this journey ... 

What I did get to see of the journey before darkness fell, was unusual to me still. The expanse of space in the rural areas were beautiful to see again. This is what I grew up with. The vivid green with the now fading Autumnal colours were out of the world to see again ... 

The Policies of Retail Chains

Locally in my town we have an Aldi... My husband used to rave on about the benefits of this chain... I beg to differ ... When I can face entering this environment ... not only do I negotiate this very busy store, but the stock filling that also gets in the way... barging past you, ignoring you and rushing about with stress of targets this store strives for ... forgetting the customer ... like me silently struggling getting their purchases at times ...

I go up to a busy London City station picking up an item in another well known store chain...Marks and Spencer... This time again negotiating stock filling with luggage in tow 

They apologize for the small aisles and the consideration shown to the customer...not once ... but twice for bumping into me ... As we work round one another ...

They are really good in their customer relations; whereever you are in the country ... They seem happier in their work ...

21 November ... Christmas for One Until ...

Today is one month exactly to the next anniversary of late husband's passing ... 

I am having a few weeks with my family. I will then have some quiet reflection with my own time attending a Christmas Memorial Service on my own and other functions. I will be spending the 21st of the next month too on my own just before departing ...for a Christmas with my new family of our daughter's partner ... staying with her for the festivities.

Week Ago Today ... and Thursday

I went out ... other than that I have seen faces, but not the outside environments still bewildering to all the senses

The intensity of noise sights and smells

All the senses even touch ... is affected ...

Today I was going out this evening, to get used to the dark environment now we are approaching the shortest day; which is the anniversary of my husbands death ...

Unfortunately I bottled out ... I will try and get out in the day instead tomorrow ...

Thankful to Get To Do Again ... And New places built ... While isoalated ...

This is just an example of what I have achieved in my anxieties in conversing with the world again ...

Family have introduced me to the workings of the world again and things I missed being away from the world ...

• Eating in a cafe and restaurant 
• Costa for a good cup of coffee
• Shopping 
• Medical Appointments 
• Entering Artificial Environments 
• A Simple Country Walk 
• A Stile with Style ... giving sister a photo special to her 
• Travelling through familiar and new counties 

Back to Kernow ...

• Spending precious time with my dying Dad 
• First and last visit to where Dad took us ... to one of his favourite places in Cornwall ... Bodmin Moor ...
• This year my first visit .. post Widow ... of climbing above sea level to the top of Brea Hill at Daymer Bay giving a 360 degree view of the area... 
• Woodland walks ...  across fields ... up and down the valley hills of my old market town 
• As far South Westerly as Penzance ... 

Up north ... To Crewe and Manchester ... 

New Experiences ... since away from the world ...

• Millennium Bridge
• The Globe ... An open air Performance ... I had to sit out ...part way through 
• The Globe ... A performance by candle light ... so enchanted ... I managed the whole performance ...
• I had been to a medieval banquet years earlier as a treat by friends ... that was an amazing experience ... many courses ... it reminded me of that environment 
• Sevenoaks ... To sit three exams with two days learning
•                      First Aid and Defibrillator Training 
• Swanley ....... Training for Voluntary Work 

Back to See Fireworks ...

at our previous local display in a farmers field supporting the locality in entry and the refreshments all made and supported locally ... the backdrop of these fireworks being the local castle ruins ... over the river opposite the field.

There is always a parade with the Guy made and carried from the primary school to this field, with the traditional bonfire, where most of the crowds waiting to see the fireworks, congregate. 

This being the first time back since my husband passed away. 

These fireworks never in all the time we have been: fail to impress the appreciative crowd. Well worth the effort made to get there via a train journey and some walking. It was a clear night sky with the stars twinkling. A dry display this time. It was not cold either.

It Would be the Easiest Option to stay inside ...

with what can be done on line ... 

If you don't want to cook ... 

I have 3 Pizza companies; 3+ Indian and so much more I could rotate and have deliver ... 

On line shopping 

I had a taste of that when I was physically unwell to venture out ... too easy apart from minimum order for one and budgets ...

Deliveries of Entertainment 

Another hoarding nightmare ... which is a consumerism problem if of addictive nature which we are all susceptible to ...

White Goods and other household items 

Clothing Footwear

General Household Bill Paying 

Prescriptions Delivered 

All useful if you are housebound with difficulties different to my needs ... while I am able it is better to function back in society ... isolation is a source for so many ...

And that is if I want talk ... I have shook one and all off at the moment 

Whoops ... Sorry ... Love ...

baby on board ...as I got bumped first to the right and then behind ... on trickling out of the fireworks tonight ... in among the throng of people. It was as always up close and personal. I am starting to feel as though I never had that time away from society for a moment or two today, as we were jostling out of the recreation ground. 

Enjoying the Varied Environments ... anew ...

Walks Locally ..Up North .. Down South West .. Old and New ..

I have visited as far as Penzance in Cornwall this year. We were unable to travel far with Dad last year. And I have visited as far up as Manchester in the summer for my daughters graduation.

In between many woodlands, lanes, fields, church yards, hills, estate walkabout to see homes for sale my sisters passion, trails, parks aplenty, cities, urban areas, suburban and byways and highways ... exploring foot paths ... stiles with style .... rivers, fords, and the sea ... paddling too ...

And getting to see one of our most favourite areas climbing to the top of Brea Hill with

a 360 degree view of the North Coast of Cornwall ... at Easter this year with my sister ... seeing views of:-

• The Camel Trail
• The River Camel and its estuary 
• Daymer Bay 
• Rock 
• Padstow 
• The Atlantic ocean
• Trebetherick
• St Enodoc Church and golf course